Life is too short

Today my hubby lost his great uncle. A man that helped raise him. A great man that was good hearted and stubborn. He was sick with cancer and he lost his battle. It is comforting to know that he is no longer suffering and he is in a better place. However it is an eye opener that we should live everyday as if it were our last. We are only here for a short time and need to surround us with the ones we love as much as possible. We should always say I love you even if we are only running an errand. We should never go to bed angry. We should always forgive and forget. I can not imagine living my life without the ones I love. I can not even begin to imagine how his aunt feels right now. I am certain she is going to be fine and she will find comfort in making sure that all of us family is doing ok because that is what she does. I am sure that is now smiling down upon us. I am sure that we have another guardian angel to watch after all of us and our children. I only wish that I was not a nervous wreck and that my hubby and his family was not going through this. I am not good when it comes to death. I make myself absolutely sick. I have a difficult time being strong. I am a very nervous person anyway. I know that I will get threw this and so will my family. Just please hug the ones you love and tell them I love you tonight because tomorrow is not guaranteed.......
Until we meet again ~Jen~ 

TGIF.....no not really

I  so look forward to days off. Having the kiddies home with me  and then reality smacks me in the face! SMACK! "Mommy, I am hungry!" "Mommy I don't wanna wear that!" "Mom MY HAIR LOOKS STUPID!" "MOM  I wanna go to grandma's NOW!" OH the joy of mouthy girls.....GOD grant me the serenity to get through this morning with these whiny girls without flying off the handle. I just don't get it. When I was a kid I would have been overjoyed with a day off and playing outside or drawing or playing barbie's. I love barbies! Just sayin'....lol! Here's to a 3 day weekend! My pre-birthday weekend as well! =p 36.....it all down hill from here! (o:
Updates later ~Jen~

SuperMom

Do you ever feel pressured or less of a mom if you don't make a fantastic meal? Silly as this may sound....I planned yesterdays meal....chili dogs and chips and I really felt like a bad mom and wife for not planning something more. So the hubby de-thawed some steaks and I made some pasta salad and I made some BBQ'ED onions. Honestly my family would have been fine with the damn hot dogs but  I felt like I had a reputation to uphold! WTF!?! Is what I am thinking. I do the same with keeping the kitchen and living room clean. (notice I only listed 2 rooms...LOL) I beat myself up if I don't have it so-so. I need to chill, take a pill I know. I freak out (well not really but I get very annoyed loudly) if the window is open and the blinds are not even with the bottom of the window but overlook the fact that the window and blinds are gag me gross. I get frustrated if the ketchup is on the shelf in the fridge and not in the door where it belongs. I mean who does that? All these things are because I am wearing this damn supermom cape!!! I am a domestic diva. I actually just said this the other day. My cousin says, "You always have something in that crockpot!" I said "I know I am so domesticated it is sick huh??" But it is who I is and I am sure that that is why you all love me!!!!!!!!! ~Until next time~ SuperMom ~Jen Diaz~